As I take some time out to write this morning, the sun is rising on what I normally call ‘hump day’.
But today is no hump day.
Today is the
first day of the rest of my life.
After 6 years of getting comfortable with a
role and its associated title, responsibilities and routines, the whole tree has been
shaken and this little apple has busted free.
It is both an ending and a new beginning rolled into one. I’ve been in
this situation twice before, but this time is quite different. This time the way events unfolded, and the timing, was not of my choosing. Perhaps if it were left up to me I would
never have leapt out of the comfortable and the known? Which, by the way, is also a type
of bondage, a constriction of growth, preventing the reaching of one's full
potential.
Today feels like a huge weight has been lifted, and it has been replaced with a
vacuum of uncertainty. The truth is that though I have been looking forward to writing
something other than compliance documents, having some more time to do all
these things that I’ve been pushing aside ‘until I get the time’, and moving
into a career where hump day is not a relevant concept (because a day at work is
just as enjoyable as a day off), there is some trepidation about where this is going to lead me.
Am I going to be successful in making a desired career change?
Am I going to love where it takes me?
Is it going to pay the bills and allow me to live a life I am happy
with?
The reality is that comfort is not what we’re here for. There is little
in life over which we can have complete control (though we may try!) We have
to trust in the greater plan and at some times in our lives that lesson rings
larger, louder, and truer just to remind us that trust is the best plan forward.
So today instead of marking assignments and overhauling policies and
forms, I am going to make ice cream, start
organising my new life and at some point take a nap :) and over the coming days,
weeks and months I will start to paint a new picture for my life.
Wish me luck!
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Sunrise
at Governer’s Chair. © Renee Chamberlin all rights reserved.
